Tuesday, December 28, 2004

CHECK IT OUT

Contemporary Social Introspection about India and the World- and Bollywood, too, at

http://amarghaisas.blogspot.com/

Cutting Edge British Media and CulturalTrends at

http://scattergun.blogspot.com/

About Activism at

http://haresgroove.blogspot.com/

Some Great Quotations at

http://susanni.blogspot.com/

About an Awesome Movie at

http://www.wildernesssurvivalforgirls.com/

About Fantastic African and African-American Paris Tours at

http://www.tomtmusic.com/id24.htm

About Friendship at

http://www.geocities.com/brerdave

Check it out...and enjoy!

CRESCENT CITY NEWS

FOR AN INTERESTING AND SOMETIMES ARRESTING VIEW OF CRESCENT CITY AND DEL NORTE COUNTY, CALIFORNIA, VISIT

http://www.jameswayman.com/







Monday, December 27, 2004

KWAANZA LOOKING BACK

My family--my dog, my wife, and I--spent a quiet Christmas. Very little getting and spending; instead, we spent time at the beach, outside; spent time reading; spent time in quiet reflection.

Solitude on Christmas. It was not bad: I rather liked it.

Thursday, December 23, 2004

YEAR-END GRACE

IF BY CHANCE YOU PASS BY HERE,
MAY YOU BE GRACED WITH CHRISTMAS CHEER;

AND IF YOU FEEL SOME YEAR-END GRACE
MAKE NOTE OF IT...LEAVE A TRACE...

FOR MANY MANY FOLKS ARE FEELING THE PAIN
OF WARFARE, DESPAIR, OF HUNGER AGAIN...

BAUBLES AND GLITTER AND DENIAL SO HUGE
COVER UP A 'SPINVERBOUNTIFUL' DELUGE

OF WORDS TO RATIONALIZE AND JUSTIFY DEATH.
IS IT NOT A WASTE OF BREATH?

TO THE VICTOR GOES THE SPOIL--
ESPECIALLY WHEN IT'S A MATTER OF OIL...

Monday, December 20, 2004

BREATH OF LIFE

I've been in bed for a week or so nursing an old foot injury. Now I'm getting up and around --and back to journal writing.

Been reading other folks' writing for inspiration-- and got some good thoughts at Susanni's website: good stuff on taking responsibility and manifesting the change that one seeks in the world.

I've been trying to seek inspiration-- the "breath" of life and hope-- outside of myself; of course, for inspiration to "take", it must resonate within.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

A MATTER OF CHOICE

If I choose...

To see my cup overflowing, it is...

To feel my life as abundant, it is...

To sense this moment as Hopeful, it is...

To see life's possibilities as innumerable, they are...

To have a sense of deep peace pervading, it does...

To know the gift of life as precious, it is...


It's a matter of choice.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

HOLIDAYS

Tis the Season, yes it is,

Lots of bubbles, lots of fizz.

Baby Saviour being born

Amidst newscasts of His world wartorn.

State-run terror named "democracry":

"Please pass the food" with Yule ceremony.

St. Nick is busy making business grow:

We will use our plastic to Santa's HO HO HO.

-AND-

In case you are feeling "blue" and low on Yuletide cheer:

"Christmas Joy to you, my friend, and peace in the New Year."

Friday, December 10, 2004

KEYBOARD POWER

What if one hundred thousand readers were expectantly awaiting my next installment from MY HIDING PLACE, how would I use my power of the keyboard? Would I use the power wisely? Would I impart words of wisdom?

Or...would I flatter my audience to keep you coming back for more?

Tell you that you are the Chosen People, the Elect, the Select, the Virtuous, the Deserving, the Beloved of God, the Heaven-Bound...

If, on the other hand, I were to tell you that I totally am ordinary-- and you probably are, too-- then I may have lost your favor and attention... et voila, there goes my audience.

Ah well, an attentive audience could be a scary thing!

Thursday, December 09, 2004

THE MILLENIUM MOMENT

Some memories are especially important.

One such memory for me is the TURNING OF THE MILLENIUM, 2000. I remember watching on TV the WORLDWIDE CELEBRATION of the NEW MILLENIUM.
It was such a hopeful time.

There were pictures of dancers in Tonga, singers in Africa, musicians in Europe, schoolchildren in the Middle East and in Latin America, happy crowds in East Asia, skaters in Nordic countries-- grinning and celebrating people from throughout the world-- joyously heralding the new millenium. It was a moment of much promise and hope... that diversity of peoples and cultures may hold within its compass a guiding beacon for the future.

Then came 9/11 and the beacon seems dimmer now.

Nonetheless, I hold onto the "millenium moment"-- and the promise it foretells of a brighter tomorrow.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

BOYHOOD IN PAKISTAN

In 1955 and 1956 I lived in Pakistan.

In 1956 I enrolled in a Pakistani school (the Bai Virbaiji Sopariwalla boys school) where I was the only non-Pakistani student. My Dad-- an American advisor in a Ford Foundation-sponsored project-- and my Mom, both, were "internationalists" (remember: this was the era of Eleanor Roosevelt, Dag Hammersjoeld, Jean Monet, JK Galbraith, Nehru, ChouEnLai, Albert Luthuli, JW Fulbright, Abba Eban, Dwight Eisenhower). "Internationalist" had a connotation at that
time that included conciliation, understanding, and optimism. Like Liberal and Progressive, it is now a term that has lost its meaning and has been derided into inconsequence. As
internationalists, my folks wanted me to become a responsible world citizen as well as a
responsible citizen of the United States. As a consequence, I went to a Pakistani school, made Pakistani friends, learned to speak some Urdu-- though most of the classes were in English--
and generally, had a good time.

My parents were right about alot of things, but not everything.

When I speak languages other than English (and I speak a few)
in the United States, people seem increasingly wary of me-- as if I am being disloyal to Americans to use the idiom of people for whom English may be difficult. I use other languages anyway. But the U.S. way seems to be: ENGLISH ONLY!

Que sera, sera. Internationalism, with its naiive optimism is passe.

Still, some people insist on learning other languages.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

A NEW RESPECTFULNESS

A new respectfulness is here.
You will not read about it in the newspapers, journals, or in trendy magazines-- but, a new respectfulness has arrived.
It involves respect for diversity in thought, expression, language, behavior, dress, gesture, religion, gender, culture, political and social forms, mannerisms, art, aesthetics-- and yes, this respectfulness even tolerates ambiguity.
Mind you, the new respectfulness may not have yet come to the fore in public consciousness; it may not have upstaged pre-emptive warfare, censorship, or the erosion of human liberties; still, the seed has been planted...and come a new year, mutual respect may be popping up all over.

Monday, December 06, 2004

HERE I GO AGAIN

Blogspot do you want me?

Google do you like me?

MSN do you need me?

Yahoo do you hear me?

Blog Readers can you find me?--

or--

Am I just another virtual blogger

Tripping out in virtual space?--

Like the tree falling in the forest

That no one hears--was it ever there?--

Is this a way to connect or... am I simply:


Another monkey at another keyboard?


Thursday, December 02, 2004

SO THIS IS WHAT IT IS ABOUT

I read the blog from the "girl in Baghdad"--"riverbend"--and had an epiphany--not a sweet epiphany, but an awful epiphany...as in "riding the BEAST as it slouches towards Bethlehem..."

And I realize as I click here and there from website to website that the would-be masters of the NEW WORLD ORDER are addicted to power, to might, to violence, to intimidation, to domination, to their own images, and to the various idolatries of commerce. Indeed they are creating a "novus ordo seculorum" that subborns religion to the state and directs people's spiritual proclivities into state-ordained and state-directed, organized religious and educational activities. This is not the secular state built on a separation of church and state; rather, it is a secular order constructed on a foundation that subordinates religion (and education) to state interests.

It is the STATE OF THE BIG LIE, and our national leaders are the maniacal perpetrators of this fraud on the Majority of PEOPLE here at home and throughout the WORLD.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

ADDICTED TO HIDING

Yup. Since the age of three I've been addicted to hiding.

It isn't that I like being alone interminably; rather, I've always seemed to need lots of "time outs".
Although human interaction stimulates me, I get anxious with too much human interaction, get self-conscious, start to feel ugly...and then I need to go into retreat before I start blowing proverbial verbal farts at other folks as a purgative for my own "uglies". Retreat is safe, snug, unchallenging in a social sense--I have nothing to prove by being in hiding, nor do I have to be productive. Am I contributing to the GDP right now? I don't believe so.

I forget the difference between the GDP and the GNP, but I know they both measure aggregate productivity.
When I was in college we were taught GNP: gross national product; now the students are taught GDP:gross domestic product. I wonder what my "GPP" ("gross personal product") is. Productivity has always seemed a rather trivial human accomplishment, compared say to nurturing. Is productivity related to a BS degree? Is there a "BS coefficient" to one's "gross personal product"? I think there is...and I am told I am a pretty good "BSer".

PRETENDING TO HIDE

WHEN I WAS THREE I HID IN THE CLOSET IN MY MOM'S SEWING ROOM TO AVOID HAVING TO ATTEND MY THIRD BIRTHDAY PARTY. A DOZEN KIDS WERE COMING WITH THEIR DOZEN ADORING MOMS, AND THE PROSPECT OF HAVING TO BE THE PRETEXT FOR SUCH A GATHERING WAS SIMPLY TOO MUCH! THANKS, BUT NO THANK YOU! MIDWAY THROUGH THE BIRTHDAY PARTY MY DAD LOCATED ME IN THE CLOSET, AND HE LEAD ME TO THE TABLE IN TIME TO BLOW OUT THE CANDLES ON THE CAKE. I AM TOLD MY RENDITION OF "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME" WAS PARTICULARLY MEMORABLE...

So it was then, and so it is now. I never have been a very successful social animal (or human),
though occasionally I manage to be a good showman (or show dog).

I remember starting to have PANICS in junior high whenever I was asked what I wanted to do with my life. GOSH! I DIDN'T KNOW! All work seemed pretty meaningless to me. Could I just go to school forever? Please? Maybe I could teach, but my ideas were pretty heretical...I didn't think any school would want me. My nickname was OVERHANG: I wasn't really very proud of my big tits and belly. The girls in my school tended to flirt with other boys.